She is my best friend, my confidant, she is the one that has been there for me through everything, and i for her. She has held me up, and knocked me down when i needed it, she is honest and straightforward. And i love her more than i could ever convey. And it seems, i have to let her go. I don't want to, in fact i hate to do it. But it seems as though our lives right now are branching out into other places. I am staying home more, trying to get into a groove of being home, and being with the boys 24/7, getting into being a domestic goddess. And she is out living the life she deserves and worked very hard for. It's hard to watch and see her slowly move away from us, from me, and the boys and even though she would never admit it, Eric. I know deep down she loves us, and would love to spend more time with us, but in truth, she will never find what she needs sitting at home playing cards (even though she kicks my ass each time) and i know that, deep down i know that she has to go do her thing, while we do ours. It doesn't make it any easier though. I just hope she knows, that even though i may get upset that she isn't spending as much time with us/me as she used to, i understand and i love her, always have....always will. And whenever she needs to play some dice, or watch a movie, or beat someone in cards, i am here for her.
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