Ryan.....

3 years ago today I lost one of the best friends I ever had.

I will not go into what happened, because the reason isn't important. What I will say is that perhaps we both lost our tempers and said some things we shouldn't have said.

I miss her for a lot of diffrent reasons, but mainly because she is the person I have known the longest aside from my mom. She knew me before I knew me. She helped me grow and learn she was always someone i could g to for advice. She was straight with me, she never sugar coated anything. If I wanted a straight answer i asked her. She was the one i got in trouble with and shared some of the most memorable moments with. Climbing the cherry tree on Downing to get to the most bitter sour cherries you have ever tasted, jumping over the fence to get to each other's houses, playing in the alley, walks to 7-11, playing in the car wash, sleepovers, TAR, playing in her huge house on Poplar, her move to Minnesota. Reconnecting after not speaking for a time, 1st trips to Vegas, Staying up all night, dancing, my wedding, tripe here just because, sharing with her the joy of being pregnant, and being one of the 1st people i called when i had Aragorn. planning her wedding. These memories are only a small portion of what i hold in my heart.

There is probably not enough sorry in the world to tell her, but i can only try. She has missed so much with Aragorn and as far as I know, doesn't even know about Rohan. We have missed so much in eachother's lives, that for us, should have been some of the biggest and most important moments. I have realized of late that, that the people you knew when you were young, are most likely the ones to stick in you in the future. I can only say:

Ryan if you read this. I am sorry. And I miss you.